The Let Down

I tend to get myself really pumped about things. Going out to dinner, seeing an old friend, vacations, finally having a day off work. And yes, these are wonderful things. I’m blessed to have the ability to do them.

But typically, with ups, you have downs. The let downs hit so hard. That dinner I was so excited about? It’s awful. It just isn’t as good as I thought it would be. My old friend? It’s so awkward I’d rather be at home with my cat. A day off work? And I wish I picked up a shift instead of sitting here, alone, accomplishing nothing.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way. When things are going so well, prepare yourself, because there will be a day it all falls apart.

So what do we do? How do we deal?

I’m still trying to figure that out. But I’ve come to a realization that I can’t depend on anyone else, for much of anything really. It’s all me. Everything I do is my responsibility, my decision, my consequence or reward. I guess this is growing up.. Being on my own, realizing that I have people to talk to if I want to (but who are usually busy), I know that I’ve got to make my own path in life.

So where will I go? Your guess is as good as mine.. 

How to Make Yourself Feel Good

On those days when you just aren’t feeling yourself, try to remember the positive things in life. Like the fact that you only have two more days of double shifts, that you only have to make $10 more to pay the rest of your bills. Focus on the song on the radio that fits your life so perfectly and sing your heart out.

After you get home from work and you truly have time to think about your life, stop. Take a long bath, relax in the bubbles. Turn on your iPod and rid yourself of any thoughts until the bath is over. Force yourself to stop the thoughts. Just relax for 10 minutes. And play in the bubbles.

Pour yourself a glass of wine, malt liquor or vodka, whatever kind of night you’re having. Just grab the whole bottle of Boone’s Farm if you’re having a cheap, no good day. Drink.

But don’t just drink. Call your best friend. Tell her all your problems, let her tell you all her problems. Cry together, laugh together, remember when times were different. Keep each other on track and stay positive about life.

Hang up with your best friend, finish your drink/bottle. Put on your favorite TV show, the one that makes you feel like a million bucks and that you could conquer every single one of your fears, like you can make all your dreams come true. Lie in bed with 12 blankets listening to your show and the rain. Smile. Go to bed happy.

Wake up and be glad it’s a new day. It’s a new day! Rejoice in the fact that you woke up, even if you do have a headache or don’t feel so hot. Because it’s a new day. You survived yesterday and you can survive today. And heck, you can do it with a smile.

Stop overanalyzing. Stop thinking so much. Do what makes you happy, love those who make you happy. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh and enjoy every part of life you can.